Shaleen Rakesh

Deep blue underwater filming the final cut  the final act on videotape I barely hold on, and break into tears  it's the pressure, pain. sand  on the ocean floor  that gets me the shifting 
bodies editing the final scream then it cuts to black
 you shout pack up and I wake up on a different shore.

Sparks between you  and a pretty boy 
in the dark I stepped out and stared at my feet in the park your crush lighting up the night  and me lighting up  like I can’t cope 
 with the puppy dog hope  in your eyes I fled that cage  that I was starting to weld for myself.

Dried on my lips last nights kiss on a pillow at rest tracing the hollow of his chest the morning air now empty of him but drifting freely with his scent the fragrance that showers me awake as the day begins.

The night of parting, now rests on your silent lips the tedious love we indulged under a treacherous moon when a dark and heavy, thunder scattered brush on the road.

In the middle of the night  I wonder how you and I met did we wander, like sleepwalkers do you remember  was it night or day? we drifted inside  echoes, and you emerged again  inside me I listened to myself  as you rose, awake from a sleep, that foresaw us.  

For centuries you have searched for love you are reborn  to give it  another life another name shining souls shining bodies is it in love you always shine? we dream and we shout we sow you like seed and witness a miracle as you spring forth like hope, flower, song like a garden  in my veins

There was a time when I was not even aware that  the sun's vanishing trick in the evening is just  an ordinary thing  and on a lazy summer morning I was woken up  delighted by an eagle drifting in the air.

With everything turn to sky nothing left of the ground but a few blades of grass  that used to imitate  the forest  not even that garden is left but in my eyes  there are only fires my spirit will be  the final house, when smashed into pieces. 

All this time  I'm alive in different worlds in different places outside me I'm moving in and out of memory caught in those lives I wake up to embrace  everyday things surprised  and comforted I'm still here.

I feel the heat of this  blaze of sun I gather this day like fruit that sweetens Tonight my joy will be like a silent tree lost in the  forest.

Like this flower  of spring  as delicate as it is as moist as it is as fragrant as it is  as joyous as it is as utterly  enchanting  as it  is Like this flower is my unseen love Growing in the garden of my life.

For the lover  I trust blindly in your vision so I can walk lightly  in step  with you for the lover I trust blindly in your kindness  so I can strip naked of my self  and without effort I bare my soul.

When this  night starts for us will we like any other be able to look at each other and go to sleep will I see you with eyes half closed and find us lie down like this evening  I have lost the way to sleep my love I waver at the street corner like a firefly.

After a long night of  mist one by one the stars appear I breathe in the warm air that the  summer  of  your sky gives me I am passing through a village  of images caught in your eyes

The stars arrive with the blaze on high they bring stories that sway  and fall with the first wind but let the next come sudden from the sky new lustres will return.

Suddenly high above the dream spreads the gracious  wonder  of blinding light and I, curled  over the ground  startled by the sun come back to my senses as a shadow  cradled and gradually nurtured.